Just another teeanger...
Realizing the true measure of life can be painful.
Realizing what I'm loosing can be harder.
I see myself as the helpless little insect,
trapped in the giant web that we call life.
I see everything that goes around me,
but make no effort to take part in it.
Responsibilities hold me down,
people that are supposed to love me hold me down,
people that are my true friends hold me down.
So I think to myself,
what the hell do I have?
Friendships being forgotten,
harsh words that ring at my heart day and night,
expectations that can never be reached....
As I sit here,
silently,
I feel the moments past.
Realizing the fact that my life is pretty shitty
makes me ill with despair.
Knowing that I have no control over life,
fills me with unbearable pain that I couldn't even begin to comprehend.
Hiding my tears in the safety of the darkness,
I realize,
I'm just another unhappy teenager having trouble coping with life...
Expectations
Expectations,
that's what everybody has for me.
They want this and they want that,
but it's hard to fulfill it.
Sometimes you feel like you're not you,
and at times it's like you can't breathe.
All your space is being taken,
and you feel trapped within these walls.
So I hide.
I try,
I do.
Then if I succede I rejoice for them,
if I don't I feel the pain and the dissapointment,
and remind myself what a dissapointment I am.
Letting go
Why do u make me feel this way?
You are supposed to be my best friend,
the one that makes me laugh, when I want to cry.
The one that shares my enthusiasm when I'm excited,
the one that's happy because I'm happy.
But you don't do that anymore.
I can see the annoyance in your eyes.
I see the way you look at me,
and I feel my heart slowly breaking.
And sometimes when you talk,
you make me feel like a little kid,
and your scolding me for something I didn't do.
I realize now that our fiendship will never be as strong as it once was.
I doubt it'll even last.
But I feel stuck,
because you see,
I want to let you go,but I can't.
My friend, you're all that I have.
You're the only one that really knows me.
You're the one that I have made many memories with.
I'm scared to let you go,
but I hope that when the time comes,
it won't be as bad as I anticipate,
and I sincerely hope that the pain of our loss will quickly subside.
Memories
They may feel like a thousand daggers in your heart,
or a thousand flowers blossoming in your soul.
No matter what kind of life you may lead,
there is always going to be memories that are going to make you cringe,
make you cry,
and especially ones that make u smile.
All memories are precious,
whether they may be sad or happy.
They remind you of the love you once had and the feeling that you can look
forward to once more,
or they may make you think and learn.
Memories are all that you have of the past.
They are important,
yet their purpose keeps going unnoticed.
So I ask with all my heart,
please hold on to your memories.
Weather they may be the ones that you want to hide from,
or the ones that gives you the feeling of happiness.
You'll be suprised how much of an affect they have on you.
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